I find that if someone is on my mind, then I have a tendency to try and get it off of my mind by working on my various projects. It's become a severe habit so much so that I find myself not getting much sleep because of it.
If I have someone on my mind, I start working on my game or BETACinema editing in order to feel better. It's one thing to use a hobby or activity to feel better or cheer up by being productive. It's another thing to do it to the point where it's detrimental to health.
Recently, I was asked on a Facebook status I have written on what exactly motivates all of these projects and all of these groups that I lead. I think I'd have to attribute it to someone. Part of me hopes that this person would be impressed or something, but it's kind of unrealistic. We live in a world where you have to be self-motivated if you want to get anywhere, especially with a project like this. But even then, in the back of my head, I still kind of hope that this someone is there looking at my feats and is cheering me on.
I don't think that this blog post was supposed to make much sense, but I felt like writing about it.